In the middle of the night, when I couldn’t sleep nor distract myself with things any longer, I cried out to God for His light. I asked Him to show me what was behind my worries in my current situation of having another root canal. The sheer frustration of the waste of time and money ebbs and flows and at present it was flowing! This seems to be an unending trial of dental work needing to be done and then redone.
I started to compose a psalm to God in my mind as I poured out my heart. Then my eye caught a poster on my wall that reads the following from The Trial of Faith by Oswald Chambers
“Faith by its very nature must be tested. And the real trial of faith is not that we find it difficult to trust God, but that God’s character must be proven as trustworthy in our own minds. Faith being worked out into reality must experience times of unbroken isolation. Never confuse the trial of faith with the ordinary discipline of life, because a great deal of what we call the trial of faith is the inevitable result of being alive. Faith, as the Bible teaches it, is faith in God coming against everything that contradicts Him— a faith that says, “I will remain true to God’s character whatever He may do.” The highest and the greatest expression of faith in the whole Bible is— “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him” (Job 13:15)”
I searched the internet for some more thoughts to read on this subject and came across a sermon by S. Michael Durham. (Click on the link to read the full sermon.)
“Faith that lingers in the peaceful meadows where children play, babbling brooks wind and flowers with intriguing hues charm observers is not fit to survive the desert’s harshness. It will not be able to endure the rigors that spiritual warfare demands. It will not stand the test of the challenge. Faith is the grit in a Christian that is like the warrior’s resolve, the explorer’s determination, or even the unrelenting questions of a small child. Faith is to be enduring. And faith must be tested and tested often for it to grow in patience. James chapter one and verse three teaches God-pleasing faith must be tried so that patience would be developed. “Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.” The word “patience” means perseverance or endurance. Faith cannot last to the finish without being first and frequently challenged.
So my conclusion from these readings is that I can let go of the fretting and turn my attention to trusting God in all things. Actually I can go one step beyond letting go, I can start to rejoice and embrace God’s immeasurable love. I can shout His praises from the roof top, or at least my computer keyboard. Be blessed!